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#225

now playing: vh-1 classic

welcome to my 225th post.

i know this to be my 225th post, because the new blogger interface tells me how many there are every time i come here to pontificate.

ever since i left work today, i’ve felt this sense of calm that feels untruthful. i know, for instance, that i have to go in to work at some point this weekend and wrestle with the backup situation. but that doesn’t seem to bother me right now.

today, i finished the lions’ share of work on the guitar gallery section of my site, and i’ve gotta tell ya, it’s a bit overwhelming to look at the page with all the thumbnails of all the guitars i own and realize that every one of those belong to me. i kinda wonder where they all came from.

granted, they’ve been accumulating for over fifteen years, and every one of them has a purpose, their own character and their own reason for being part of the stable…but it just seems like a bit much. i would never have thought that there were that many of them.

i spent two weeks, literally, working on the pictures in photoshop, removing the crap in the background and trying to make the color represented in the pictures as close to the instrument as possible – then putting the pages themselves together…even though they’re nothing special, static HTML pages, it’s still time consuming.

met jayda’s new “steady” tonight. he’s a good kid.

talked to samantha for a while, too…shanna seems to be getting back to her old self, although she’s not too happy that she might not get to participate in cheerleading until august, after the spectre of her kidneystone situation has fully passed over her.

mike from shame came over after work, brought me a disc of roughs from the record they’re working on in philadelphia with shelly yakus. they’re doing great work. they’ve re-recorded some songs from previous records, which seems to be common for bands who feel as though they’re in a position to break new ground with an upcoming record that hasn’t been travelled with previous ones. garrison starr, for instance, seems to feel as though she has to record the song “superhero” on every fucking album she does. i like the song, i really do. but what does that prove?

anyway, mike is stopping by in the morning on the way to the studio to pick up a rickenbacker 12 string copy that i have to use on the record…so i should do the smart thing and take my ass to bed.

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#225

 

 

now playing: vh-1 classic

 

welcome to my 225th post.

i know this to be my 225th post, because the new blogger interface tells me how many there are every time i come here to pontificate.

ever since i left work today, i’ve felt this sense of calm that feels untruthful. i know, for instance, that i have to go in to work at some point this weekend and wrestle with the backup situation. but that doesn’t seem to bother me right now.

today, i finished the lions’ share of work on the guitar gallery section of my site, and i’ve gotta tell ya, it’s a bit overwhelming to look at the page with all the thumbnails of all the guitars i own and realize that every one of those belong to me. i kinda wonder where they all came from.

granted, they’ve been accumulating for over fifteen years, and every one of them has a purpose, their own character and their own reason for being part of the stable…but it just seems like a bit much. i would never have thought that there were that many of them.

i spent two weeks, literally, working on the pictures in photoshop, removing the crap in the background and trying to make the color represented in the pictures as close to the instrument as possible – then putting the pages themselves together…even though they’re nothing special, static HTML pages, it’s still time consuming.

met jayda’s new “steady” tonight. he’s a good kid.

talked to samantha for a while, too…shanna seems to be getting back to her old self, although she’s not too happy that she might not get to participate in cheerleading until august, after the spectre of her kidney stone situation has fully passed over her.

mike from shame came over after work, brought me a disc of roughs from the record they’re working on in philadelphia with shelly yakus. they’re doing great work. they’ve re-recorded some songs from previous records, which seems to be common for bands who feel as though they’re in a position to break new ground with an upcoming record that hasn’t been travelled with previous ones. garrison starr, for instance, seems to feel as though she has to record the song “superhero” on every fucking album she does. i like the song, i really do. but what does that prove?

anyway, mike is stopping by in the morning on the way to the studio to pick up a rickenbacker 12 string copy that i have to use on the record…so i should do the smart thing and take my ass to bed.

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instant stress headache

now playing: shane nicholson, “nice to be here”

dylan stated this week that he wants me to move to nashville so that he can come with me.

interesting that he brought it up…i talked to charlie for almost an hour on sunday about this and other things. and the fact is, it’s been on my mind ever since the near-miss audition i didn’t have a few months ago.

i’ve given some mental space to the inevitable ross geller, pro-and-con, “she’s not rachem” list* that i haven’t made yet, but have outlined in my head…in both directions, even. pros and cons of staying, pros and cons of going…since it wouldn’t necessarily be the same list with the columns reversed in my case.

hell, let’s take a stab at this. the pros and cons of staying put, as it were…

jayda and i haven’t really talked a lot about it, but it’s a given that she wouldn’t move there. and the thing that would prove to be equally distressing is that there’s no clear cut plan that wouldn’t create animosity on her part. she has a very tight social circle at school, and i couldn’t pull her out of that…and i don’t think she’d be very open to jerking her summers around either. were this to happen, it’d probably be the building of a wall between she and i that would never come down. this (along with the loss of the situation we currently have, in terms of proximity and visitation and such) is the single biggest factor in this decision. none of the others even come close.

wendy has a very real shot at a full time job at the library where she’s working – she enjoys working there, and it’d be a huge feather in her cap. i don’t think wendy harbors intentions of living here the rest of her life by any stretch, but i think this job would be a huge factor in whether she opted to stay here or not. and, of course, i’m somewhat gainfully employed at the moment, and there’s no guarantee that this would continue to be the case…the first thing i did when this possibility came up was to scan the job listings in nashville, and there were seven pages of listings under IT. As such, it doesn’t look as though it’d be terribly difficult to find something for me – but i’d have to go down there prepared for the possibility that this might not be the case.

the fact is, i’ve been here for fifteen years now, and i’ve put down roots. i have a healthy circle of friends, i have a job that i enjoy most days, my kids are here, i have a musical community here that includes a great band, a lot of fellow musicians who respect me and my abilities, and a top notch guitar tech and an amp repairman that i’d probably be lost without…these are the kinds of comforts that one accumulates as they linger in one spot for a length of time.

i don’t think that it’s so much a fear of change as it is a sense of impending loss. not just loss of a great chinese food place and a guy who knows all my guitars inside and out, either. whether i want to admit it or not, i’ve grown pretty comfortable here.

maybe too comfortable.

the ass-kicker here is that the only thing that makes it necessary to leave is that i need to be where the work is doled out to be considered a serious contender…that’s the way it works. in places like nashville, there are so many talented players that there’s just no reason to consider an out-of-towner unless there are mitigating factors that make them attractive for some reason or other. charlie and i talked about this, too…he was telling me about his friend mark prentice, who played on his record, and a conversation they had about what happened when he moved out from arizona. he said that he had a lot of talented friends back home who were constantly asking him if he could get them work on sessions or on the road, etc – and inevitably, he’d have to tell them that he couldn’t, because they weren’t in town, and that the work didn’t wait for them to come to it, they had to be here and ready to work. i can’t imagine that any other employer would be that much different – why hire someone from a thousand miles away when a perfectly suitable candidate is right down the street? someone who’s packed and ready and can be on the bus tomorrow, as opposed to someone whos’ gotta get into town from somewhere else before you can even suss ’em out?

the fact is, you gotta be there to play the game.

but the question that raises is – is this a permanent thing for me, or is it just something that i want to experience before i shuffle off this mortal coil? and, if it’s the latter, how much am i willing to sacrifice just to have that on my resume?

hell, what if i hate it? what if i think that road work sucks ass?

boy, oh boy…not hard to work oneself into a frenzy over shit like this, is it?

* the list, as made and discovered in the episode of friends that lead up to ross and rachel finally hookin’ up….you know the one…

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instant stress headache

 

 

now playing: shane nicholson, “nice to be here”

 

dylan stated this week that he wants me to move to nashville so that he can come with me.

interesting that he brought it up…i talked to charlie for almost an hour on sunday about this and other things. and the fact is, it’s been on my mind ever since the near-miss audition i didn’t have a few months ago.

i’ve given some mental space to the inevitable ross geller, pro-and-con, “she’s not rachem” list* that i haven’t made yet, but have outlined in my head…in both directions, even. pros and cons of staying, pros and cons of going…since it wouldn’t necessarily be the same list with the columns reversed in my case.

hell, let’s take a stab at this. the pros and cons of staying put, as it were…

jayda and i haven’t really talked a lot about it, but it’s a given that she wouldn’t move there. and the thing that would prove to be equally distressing is that there’s no clear cut plan that wouldn’t create animosity on her part. she has a very tight social circle at school, and i couldn’t pull her out of that…and i don’t think she’d be very open to jerking her summers around either. were this to happen, it’d probably be the building of a wall between she and i that would never come down. this (along with the loss of the situation we currently have, in terms of proximity and visitation and such) is the single biggest factor in this decision. none of the others even come close.

wendy has a very real shot at a full time job at the library where she’s working – she enjoys working there, and it’d be a huge feather in her cap. i don’t think wendy harbors intentions of living here the rest of her life by any stretch, but i think this job would be a huge factor in whether she opted to stay here or not. and, of course, i’m somewhat gainfully employed at the moment, and there’s no guarantee that this would continue to be the case…the first thing i did when this possibility came up was to scan the job listings in nashville, and there were seven pages of listings under IT. As such, it doesn’t look as though it’d be terribly difficult to find something for me – but i’d have to go down there prepared for the possibility that this might not be the case.

the fact is, i’ve been here for fifteen years now, and i’ve put down roots. i have a healthy circle of friends, i have a job that i enjoy most days, my kids are here, i have a musical community here that includes a great band, a lot of fellow musicians who respect me and my abilities, and a top notch guitar tech and an amp repairman that i’d probably be lost without…these are the kinds of comforts that one accumulates as they linger in one spot for a length of time.

i don’t think that it’s so much a fear of change as it is a sense of impending loss. not just loss of a great chinese food place and a guy who knows all my guitars inside and out, either. whether i want to admit it or not, i’ve grown pretty comfortable here.

maybe too comfortable.

the ass-kicker here is that the only thing that makes it necessary to leave is that i need to be where the work is doled out to be considered a serious contender…that’s the way it works. in places like nashville, there are so many talented players that there’s just no reason to consider an out-of-towner unless there are mitigating factors that make them attractive for some reason or other. charlie and i talked about this, too…he was telling me about his friend mark prentice, who played on his record, and a conversation they had about what happened when he moved out from arizona. he said that he had a lot of talented friends back home who were constantly asking him if he could get them work on sessions or on the road, etc – and inevitably, he’d have to tell them that he couldn’t, because they weren’t in town, and that the work didn’t wait for them to come to it, they had to be here and ready to work. i can’t imagine that any other employer would be that much different – why hire someone from a thousand miles away when a perfectly suitable candidate is right down the street? someone who’s packed and ready and can be on the bus tomorrow, as opposed to someone whos’ gotta get into town from somewhere else before you can even suss ’em out?

the fact is, you gotta be there to play the game.

but the question that raises is – is this a permanent thing for me, or is it just something that i want to experience before i shuffle off this mortal coil? and, if it’s the latter, how much am i willing to sacrifice just to have that on my resume?

hell, what if i hate it? what if i think that road work sucks ass?

boy, oh boy…not hard to work oneself into a frenzy over shit like this, is it?

* the list, as made and discovered in the episode of friends that lead up to ross and rachel finally hookin’ up….you know the one…

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resilient

now playing: the answering machine backlog

among the things in life that are best left to others to endure, methinks, would be the experience of being bedside when a small child comes out from under anesthesia.

i’ve never been under, i have no idea what it’s like for an adult – but tonight i got to see the effects it has on a child, and it’s not pretty. according to the nurse in the post-op ward, it happens to almost every child that comes out from under general anesthesia.

i don’t know how one maintains a grip on their sanity, working in an environment like that.

anyway, i bring this up because my ex-girlfriends’ daughter was in surgery tonight, having one of two kidney stones removed. there’s no way i wasn’t going to be there for that, so i went straight to the hospital after work and was there when she came to.

her behavior as she shook off the anesthesia could only be described as akin to that of a heroin addict after several days removed from the dope…she was trembling uncontrollably, her lower lip quivering as if she wanted to cry but couldn’t. she kept sticking her tongue out, saying “i can’t breathe” when it seemed as though she meant that she couldn’t swallow…i could hear the rapid rise and subsequent drop of her heart rate on the monitor next to the bed.

after roughly twenty minutes of that, she began to slowly calm down and succumb to the morphine that they put her on almost immediately after coming out. she finally let me give her some ice chips to moisten the sandpaper that someone had obviously swapped for her tongue while she was under…about 45 minutes after having awakened, we were wheeling her back to her room, where an eleven-months-pregnant orderly was waiting for her to help her back into her bed…

“obviously, you’re the medical professional here, and i’m just going on instinct, but i think there’s an offhand chance that you may be expecting in the not too distant future…”

break the ice. get ’em on your side.

actually, all the staff that i met there tonight were excellent – good bedside manner, very professional…shanna’s roommate is a girl whos’ had constant urinary bacterial infections since birth. i was talking to her dad, who said that it was something akin to having the ubiquitous kink in the garden hose occur in your urinary tract. samantha said that the conversation scared her a bit, and made her realize that her daughter was much further up the curve than some of the other kids there.

i remember, back when i began working on my first album of original music (several years prior to OMA), i used to come home from gigs and there’d be these half-hour, hour long infomercials on VH-1 for St. Judes’ Childrens’ Hospital. the first ones i saw were narrarated by danny thomas – and later by his daughter marlo after he passed away. i’d sit there in my living room at 3:30 in the morning watching these incredibly brave children, listening to their parents talk about what their kids were going through, and what their odds of survival were, and how brave they were…as often as not, i’d have my own daughter asleep on my lap, having awakened not long after i’d come home from a gig – and i’d sit there and watch these kids fighting for their lives with tears streaming down my face…

kids are the most resilient force on the planet, i think.

they have to be, to find their way in this world.

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resilient

 

 

now playing: the answering machine backlog

 

among the things in life that are best left to others to endure, methinks, would be the experience of being bedside when a small child comes out from under anesthesia.

i’ve never been under, i have no idea what it’s like for an adult – but tonight i got to see the effects it has on a child, and it’s not pretty. according to the nurse in the post-op ward, it happens to almost every child that comes out from under general anesthesia.

i don’t know how one maintains a grip on their sanity, working in an environment like that.

anyway, i bring this up because my ex-girlfriends’ daughter was in surgery tonight, having one of two kidney stones removed. there’s no way i wasn’t going to be there for that, so i went straight to the hospital after work and was there when she came to.

her behavior as she shook off the anesthesia could only be described as akin to that of a heroin addict after several days removed from the dope…she was trembling uncontrollably, her lower lip quivering as if she wanted to cry but couldn’t. she kept sticking her tongue out, saying “i can’t breathe” when it seemed as though she meant that she couldn’t swallow…i could hear the rapid rise and subsequent drop of her heart rate on the monitor next to the bed.

after roughly twenty minutes of that, she began to slowly calm down and succumb to the morphine that they put her on almost immediately after coming out. she finally let me give her some ice chips to moisten the sandpaper that someone had obviously swapped for her tongue while she was under…about 45 minutes after having awakened, we were wheeling her back to her room, where an eleven-months-pregnant orderly was waiting for her to help her back into her bed…

“obviously, you’re the medical professional here, and i’m just going on instinct, but i think there’s an offhand chance that you may be expecting in the not too distant future…”

break the ice. get ’em on your side.

actually, all the staff that i met there tonight were excellent – good bedside manner, very professional…shanna’s roommate is a girl whos’ had constant urinary bacterial infections since birth. i was talking to her dad, who said that it was something akin to having the ubiquitous kink in the garden hose occur in your urinary tract. samantha said that the conversation scared her a bit, and made her realize that her daughter was much further up the curve than some of the other kids there.

i remember, back when i began working on my first album of original music (several years prior to OMA), i used to come home from gigs and there’d be these half-hour, hour long infomercials on VH-1 for St. Judes’ Childrens’ Hospital. the first ones i saw were narrarated by danny thomas – and later by his daughter marlo after he passed away. i’d sit there in my living room at 3:30 in the morning watching these incredibly brave children, listening to their parents talk about what their kids were going through, and what their odds of survival were, and how brave they were…as often as not, i’d have my own daughter asleep on my lap, having awakened not long after i’d come home from a gig – and i’d sit there and watch these kids fighting for their lives with tears streaming down my face…

kids are the most resilient force on the planet, i think.

they have to be, to find their way in this world.

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blessed

now playing: frog holler, “least most wanted”

wendy’s grandmother passed away over the weekend.

the last time i saw her was when we went up for her aunt pattys’ wedding…i specifically remember sitting with her in her apartment, looking through family pictures that must’ve gone back over fifty years. she gave me the nararrated, guided family history as we looked through them.

she was unstoppable. she did her share of complaining, as do most elderly folks…i think i’m starting to get some insight as to the source of the aches and pains that plague folks as they start to age – i’m miles away from 40, but i seem to be noticing of late that i don’t have the stamina or the energy that i had not that long ago. but “nana” seemed to give the pain its space and move on. the day she died, she called patty to tell her that she had gas and wouldn’t be able to go kayaking with her the next day.

pretty damn spry for an 83 year old woman.

so…all this means that wendy is headed north, both for her nana’s funeral and for her cousins’ graduation the following week.

friday i drove all the way to pottstown to surprise my all-but-adopted shanna with tuition for cheerleader camp. i had talked to her mom a bit earlier in the week, and she had told me about how her daycare was doubling over the summer and that her rent was going up…and that she was selling something to try to help defray the costs of camp. i personally had no need for the cookie dough kits, or whatever they were…and i hadn’t done anything really nice for shanna for a while – so i paid for camp for her.

and, as is usually the case in my life, no good deed goes unpunished.

got a speeding ticket on the way to philadelphia this weekend – for $115…just a few bucks shy of what i gave shanna’s mom for camp.

i got a chuckle out of it as i remembered later that some years back, todd and i were standing on south street eating pizza when a woman approached us and asked for money to buy tampons. a woman, i might add, who was many years removed from the last menstrual cycle she’d had, if i had to venture a guess where her age was concerned.

as she walked away from us, she turned and told me, “god will bless you tonight”.

that night, on the way home, i got a ticket for making a U-turn prior to getting onto the ben franklin bridge.

blessed, indeed.